Incoming 19! :|

BlogpostPublished: Nov 03, 2011Views: 3006

Here comes 19! Another year of breathing... I was born on November 4, 1992. Yes, that would be tomorrow exactly since here in our place the time is still 9:31 AM. I can say this birthday is the saddest birthday I ever had. Though its not yet nov.4 but whats happening recently in my life is depressing. I had a very tough year. There were happy times but most of it are the not so happy times...

I have never been this sad before my birthday comes, those past 18 years as I remembered I was happy and excited. But now, I don't know. Maybe because I had lost 'something' I cannot replace and its really hard for me to move on from it, I've been trying for almost a year now but still, I am not completely over it. The past year that 'something' was the happiest part of my life, it was just the best I ever had and maybe because I do not have it anymore, I am not happy or excited like the way I used to be.You ask whats that something eh? Heh.I don't want to mention it, but you will know it if you read my other blogs especially the "Dreams? What are they for?"..

Another thing that makes me sad because my siblings didn't contact me yet. Usually, at the very start of november they would contact me and greet me a happy birthday. But this year, they failed to contact me. On the past years too, they're with me celebrating my birthday but since they had married and busy from work, they couldn't make it to celebrate with me.Why? because my two elder siblings work far away from my country.The other works in USA and the one works in Ireland.Far isn't it?...

Another reason is...My closest friend, I can tell she is :) here at TSR is leaving and will be seldom to check the site. Lets hide her identity and call her "Rosenoire87" hahaha maybe you know her lol. I understand her reason of leaving, I know TSR is stressful :D. But I'm still happy because she wants to keep in touch with me :D. You take care of yourself buddy! I'll miss you for sure...and know that I'll be here at TSR waiting for you :)

Though I had a tough year I'm still thankful that I had reach this age so far :) I know there will be another mornings and nights and the sun will surely set for me :) I'm still thankful because life gave me friends who made my not so happy days to happy days :D Have a great day people, thanks for reading ;D

rosenoire87 ∙ Nov 3, 2011

My dear friend, Happy birthday in advance  $\:D$ $\:rah\:$ $\:rah\:$ $\:D$
I'm sorry that it's not as joyous an event as your previous birthday but if you have already read your guestbook then you know by now that I've decided to only leave temporarily, I'll be back on tsr in a few weeks after I've had time to breathe and do other things $\:P$ So maybe that can count as my bday gift to you? $\:D$
Sorry to hear about your siblings not contacting you early this year $\:$$
The list of what we have in common continues to grow $\:eek\:$ I also have siblings on different continents from me and its hard to feel like you're losing that closeness and that everyone's life is changing so things can't really be the same, but in many ways as well a lot of things remain the same as long as you all keep in contact no matter how busy life gets. I hope they have contacted you by now, but no matter how busy they are and I'm sure you know this, they won't forget your special day.
And don't let past issues dampen your spirit, it's your birthday! Celebrate it, you've lived another year on this earth, you've had 1 more year of experiences (both good and bad) and each of those experiences have contributed to the person you are right now $\:$$
Thank you for having a positive effect on my life as well $\:\)$
So without further ado:
Happy Birthday to youuu
Happy Birthday to youuu
Happy Birthday dear Xhaii,
Happy Birthday to youuu
$\:D$